1. The Pilot
Do you remember watching a movie or your favorite TV show as a young kid and thinking “yeah that’s going to be me one day.” You’re chipper, optimistic, and had your whole life planned out. You tell yourself things like “I’m going to have my own home, be married with four kids, and working in my dream career by 25”. Then you got older and less innocent. You know? In a sense of gaining fears, insecurities, and guilty pleasures. An experience simple as secretly eating a snack in a classroom and you know the teacher has a “no eating rule”. Or going to bed past your curfew. Well anyway, you go to school, you start working your first job, you make friends and get different interest. You get distracted. Well at least, I did. Suddenly, you’re 25 with no man, no kids, you have a roommate, you’re working but is it your dream job?
You may think it sounds a bit cliche but my favorite movie growing up was “The Devil Wears Prada”. I loved everything about that movie. The lifestyle, the fashion, and the work ethic. Now, did I see myself working for a mean and bitchy boss who doesn’t respect her employees? Of course not. In my dreams, my boss wasn’t bitchy at all and she’s very respectful. I don’t think anyone should aspire to have Miranda Priesly’s personality. You can be assertive with grace.
I saw myself elevating in my career, my social life, my look. It was about the hustle, the glamour, and how these women led all mixed in one. However, I had many inspirations and remember, I was 10. Joan Clayton and Toni Childs from “Girlfriends”, Lauren in “Think Like A Man”, and Issa Dee in “Insecure” (even though she didn’t get the glamour until the end) But in that order.
I always did what I was supposed to do. I finished high school, graduated from college, and stayed out of trouble. So where is my husband, four kids, big home, and dream job? Did I miss a step? No. Did I watch too much TV? I hate to admit it but yes. Not in a “my dreams are impossible to achieve kind of way” but in an “it’s not as easy as it seems”. Kind of way. It took me five years to graduate college. I was ready to get out in the real world and succeed.
Even though we’re in a pandemic, I didn’t think I would have a problem getting a job. Not Ms. Toni Childs, but reality set in. Then I found myself going a year without a job. Then I found myself being sad, sometimes depressed, frustrated, and pessimistic. Which helped lead me to you.
I started thinking, maybe I should do my own thing. I’m a leader, I’m a hustler, I’m opinionated, I’m strong, I’m smart, I have glamour-ish.
If you’re wondering, yes, I have a corporate job now but the woman that I am will never let me give up on my dreams. Of course, I’m still trying to find my niche and like my fictional inspirations I have a lot of character development to do, but I welcome you guys on my journey. This is whoaskedyoukai.com.
